"I went there to find out what happened to you. Maybe I was going to kill him, but it doesn't matter because I didn't. He did it, Connor. He killed himself for his own reasons, and I really don't think you want to get into that when you have other things to deal with right now."
Angel steps back at the rest of the rant, like Connor has backhanded him across the face. He hates Daniel Holtz for what he has done to Connor, but he hates himself for letting it happen. For his own part in turning Connor into someone incapable of loving without hating at the same time.
"I didn't turn you because I wanted you to have a real second life. If I wanted you to love me, to care for me, I wouldn't have given you a life that excluded me, son." Angel's tone is flat and he can practically see the mall as he talks. It's funny how the memory can screw with you.
"I just wanted you to be happy and not a part of some ancient struggle that had nothing to do with you. To know love without vengeance and hate. Turning you wouldn't have accomplished that. Killing Holtz wouldn't have accomplished that. My choices have never been about Daniel Holtz, boy. They've been about you because if this was about Holtz? He'd still be in my basement in the Hyperion barely clinging to life as I tortured him for everything he put you through."
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Date: 2006-01-30 06:56 am (UTC)Angel steps back at the rest of the rant, like Connor has backhanded him across the face. He hates Daniel Holtz for what he has done to Connor, but he hates himself for letting it happen. For his own part in turning Connor into someone incapable of loving without hating at the same time.
"I didn't turn you because I wanted you to have a real second life. If I wanted you to love me, to care for me, I wouldn't have given you a life that excluded me, son." Angel's tone is flat and he can practically see the mall as he talks. It's funny how the memory can screw with you.
"I just wanted you to be happy and not a part of some ancient struggle that had nothing to do with you. To know love without vengeance and hate. Turning you wouldn't have accomplished that. Killing Holtz wouldn't have accomplished that. My choices have never been about Daniel Holtz, boy. They've been about you because if this was about Holtz? He'd still be in my basement in the Hyperion barely clinging to life as I tortured him for everything he put you through."